I have been thinking about how little I know. I know very little about much really. I know enough, but when humans use what, 10% of their brains, what is it that I am capable of doing but that i'm not?

I was also thinking about God. I know that I think about God differently to how most of my friends at home think about God. I feel sometimes like i live on the fringes of the Christian community. like I can't really jump in and claim it as mine because of how I percieve things. But, on the other hand, I don't know if I really need to. It can be rather perplexing (isnt that a good word!) as how in one part of my life my inquistiveness/way of thinking is welcomed and encouraged, expected even. And in the other half, i feel like people are a little scared of me maybe. Its more comfortable if I just shhh really.

I heard this song on klove; i like it.

Steven Curtis Chapman - God Is God
From the album Declaration

And the pain falls like a curtain
On the things I once called certain
And I have to say the words I fear the most
I just don’t know

And the questions without answers
Come and paralyze the dancer
So I stand here on the stage afraid to move
Afraid to fly, oh, but fall I must
On this truth that my life has been formed from the dust

God is God and I am not
I can only see apart of the picture He’s painting
God is God and I am man
So I’ll never understand it all
For only God is God

And the sky begins to thunder
And I’m filled with awe and wonder
‘Til the only burning question that remains
Is who am I

Can I form a single mountain
Take the stars in hand and count them
Can I even take a breath without God giving it to me
He is first and last before all that has been
Beyond all that will pass

Oh, how great are the riches of His wisdom and knowledge
How unsearchable for to Him and through Him and from Him are all things

God is God and I am not
I can only see apart of the picture He’s painting
God is God and I am man
So I’ll never understand it all
For only God is God