well i've had a really good week after last weeks turmoil. i have decided to think positively- to make a choice to dispel negtive thoughts and challenge illogical ones! i bought myself a new bible which i've been reading and i have found it really helpful to be able to study the word. not just read it. when i can wrestle with it intellectually and see how it truly applies, it makes reading it a much more enjoyable experience. something i want to do rather than something i feel i should do. i have realised that sometimes one sentence that could easily go unnoticed makes all the difference if you really look at it. i've got quite alot of work done as well which helps me to feel less useless. i have realised that time is precious. the more i sit around acheiving very little, the more purposeless i feel. i must keep busy and active. making my moments count.
i have also had a very cool day in london! see above. last saturday i went for a trip to see all the things you usually dont see! i went to Buckingham palace, big ben, leceister sq, covent garden, st pauls and the tate modern!! which i have to say i thought was a load of rubbish. i did see a few pieces which i thought were plesant to look at but hardly anything struck me as being particulary artistic. its silly. but i suppose its not my opinion that counts. "art" will continue!