This is a very honest post. I found these lyrics:

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces

lyrics by anna nalick

Dont panic- i'm not having a big emotional break down or anything, its the first part that caught me. 'Thinking about calling on Jesus'. I think thats my problem- i don't. i am in the process of writing my own doctrines- or i was before finishing uni for christmas. some of you are probably thinking- What?! but i needed to write my own- a list of the things i believe to be true. As a pluralist (again, i hear another gasp) and a person interested in spiritulity, i think that there is more to God then what we know and the way the Bible interprets it- or more the way we interpret the Bible. I am trying to write a deep theological statement on the rights or wrongs of religous pluarlism, biblical interpretation or cherry picking faith. But the truth is, i have made it my life to try and debate God, but how much do i even bother to talk to Him? very little. not because i find it hard but because i cant be bothered. i know its beneficial, i know it means alot, i know it would make my spiritual life better, but recently i just havent bothered. i think part of the problem is that i have opened my mind to the idea of God so much- being so big- that i have lost the personal. i'm not on the brink of a crisis- and whether you agree with my spirituality or not- please believe me when i say that. i'm not looking for a solution because i know what i have to do- just put in a bit of effort. it just feels like hard work to being with. I want to know God so much, i really do, i ache to understand him and have others get what i see God to be- but it just takes so much darned effort. looks like i have some catching up to do!