Those of you who know me well enough will understand that i am always annoyed. constantly. there is always something out there somewhere that gets right up my nose. i would be foolish to believe that this is always a good thing, negitivity is not a blessing, but i do believe that maybe God has granted me the dispostition of righteous anger that others maybe just dont have the guts for. Today i am really annoyed but i dont fully understand what it is i'm annoyed at. So i shall begin rambling and i'll get somewhere eventually. I'm annoyed that people of faith rarely truely believe in anything(stark generalisation. i apoligise) i'm annoyed that we are taught that healing is an 'emotional thing' in this day and age rather than anyone ever actually sticking their neck out. I'm annoyed that people feel they need to somehow prove that God exists, or that they are right or that their faith is valid or that they need to understand. and i'm annoyed completely hyprocritically cos i get why people do all at the same time. i wish there was more of God and less of him all at the same time. i wish there was more of GOD truly- more of his passion, love, kindness compassion, amazing all fulfilling spirit- i wish that was everywhere, tangible, in the air so much you could taste it. i so wish that. but i also wish there was less of the god who people make out he is. i wish there was less of this 'religious nonsense'- the arguements, the dogma, the institions. the violence and bigamy all in the name of something that they dont even understand. i'm annoyed at God that he lets this stuff happen that he lets people get away with rubbishing his name- but part of me gets why he needs to as well. because then, everytime someone does get it, someone does understand, he can truly smile. cos they found him despite all the crap. my ranting is over. i'll move own to being annoyed about something else now.